Angst

I don’t know if you have ever been here before, but I thought I’d paint a picture and let you tell me if you have.

Sitting on the couch with my MacBook on my lap.

My “House of Voodoo” coffee cup full of Dunkin Donuts coffee sits steaming nearby.

My sleepy-headed German Shepard is sacked out on the couch next to me.

My thoughts are all driven by one emotion: Angst.

Mostly I am angry at my life of “impressing others“.

I have spent most of my life worrying about what others think about me.

Employers, employees, spouse, friends, family – I put so much emphasis on what others see in me that I had never really stopped to reflect on what I see in me.

Until now that is…

I’ve found that I have:

• A giving spirit
• A sense of purpose that many don’t have
• A desire to be better everyday
• A competitive mindset
• A strong sense of rebellion
• A viewpoint that is outside the status quo
• A strong desire to inspire
• A desire to excel in my career
• A desire to leave a legacy

I have a career that I am proud to be a part of. I have personal and business mentors that I am lucky to have in my life. I have a family that I am proud of, and quite honestly am blessed to be a part of.

I have so much to be thankful for.

But now I am more focused on a life full of experiences.

I’m less concerned about the opinions of others, although I respect them.

I realize life owes me nothing.

I owe it to myself to be me.

I owe it to my family to be the best me I can be.

I owe it to those I work with to be the leader they need me to be.

I owe it to friends to build relationships that aren’t conditional.

I owe it to the world to be genuine.

I owe it to people in my life to be open and honest, not to hold my tongue.

I owe it to everyone in my life to be the same person to their face as I am behind their back.

I owe it to God to fulfill my purpose on this planet.

I may not know what my purpose is just yet, but somewhere in my talents lies the answer.

And I’m on a mission to find it.

As for me, it’s time to raise the bar in life.

How about you?